Thursday, November 27, 2014

dream deep

I remember taking the first jump into the sea. I couldn't swim but I breathed enough to sustain me. I would break the surface, gasping for air, before I plunged back into the depths of a never ending ocean of numbness. I wanted to numb these feelings which has haunted me for so long. What made me happy, what made me sad. I would rather have nothing than to feel everything. I tried a hedonistic life and I hated it because it made me feel like an animal, not knowing right from wrong and knowing only pleasure. Then I rejected any source of happiness or comfort because I felt like I did not deserve any. I was angry at myself, and I did not like who I was.

So instead of surfacing, I sunk.

I knew there was always more but I was afraid to break the surface of the pleasant calm and I stayed myself. I forced myself to survive as long as I could without air. I know that one day I would have to surface... But in the meantime, I will satisfy myself with what I possessed: the comforts of what I have and what could be.

Then I realize I no longer know which way is up, even though I had adapted and learned how to swim. Up, down, left and right, never knowing which direction is swimming away from life, until I saw sunlight, dancing across the water. Rays of salvation and I wanted to live.

When you escape, you escape for only a while, but your problems still remain. You forget for two hours, but nothing has changed. You come back to the same. It was pointless, it was stupid. I let buoyancy take over and float on the surface, reminiscing about how easy it was to let the ocean take over and silence what I didn't want to acknowledge. But we were not meant for this. What is easy isn't always right. Sometimes, you need a little fight.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

7 lessons from HIMYM


So I've just finished watching How I Met Your Mother and I realized that there were more than a few gems in the entire 9 seasons, but here are 7.

1. In time, we all become our own dopplegangers. These completely different people who just happen to look like us. 
Change is the only constant in life, and every day we grow a little further from the person we used to be. 

2. Reacher and Settler Theory
There is always one person in a relationship who reaches out for someone who could do better and who settles for and is happy with what they have. 

3. You can ask the universe for signs all you want. But ultimately, we only see what we want to see, when we are ready to see it. 
I guess this is pretty self-explanatory. I mean... I have literally nothing to add. 

4. Dobler/Dahmer Theory
A person who doesn't care for you will not be moved by your romantic gestures and will most probably find you repulsive and creepy. But if a person cares, even the creepiest gesture might seem sweet and romantic. 

5. You can't cling on to the past, because no matter how tightly you hold on, it's already gone. 
We try so hard to live in the past, sometimes, because we're afraid that we will never experience the same again but the truth is, nothing ever is. But if you live in the present, you will always have room for more. 

6. Whatever you do in life, it is not legendary until your friends are there to see it. 
Your friends are the family that you pick. And you are the company that you keep. So pretty much, we're nothing without friends. 

7. Love is the best thing we do. 
Isn't it? 

Monday, November 17, 2014

7 lessons life is trying to teach you

1. Don't scratch your itches.
Because it will only make it worse. Leave it alone and it will heal. 

2. Wait your turn.
Just like the seasons, there is a time and place for everything. 

3. We are not original, only inspired.
You are one of a kind based on your own construct, not of your own creation. 

4. Your hands are good at different things.
Nobody was created equal, everyone has their talents. 

5. Change what you can't accept, accept what you can't change.
There is no third option. 

6. Sunsets are glorious but fleeting and are never the same. 
Appreciate the beautiful moments in life, because the only way you can relive them are in your mind and even memories don't stay. 

7. Nothing matters unless you let it. 
We give meaning to what has none. Sometimes things just happen for no reason. But the truth is, your perspective of reality is an illusion. So make your perspective count, make your life worth living. 

Friday, November 14, 2014

Review: Beauty Talk Double Cleansing Gel

I received this baby from HiShop and I think I've found it. I found my Holy Grail Cleanser.


Don't you just hate it when you hop into the shower and realise that:

1. You forgot to remove your makeup.
2. You forgot to put hair removal cream on your legs for the 500th time and you're starting to look like a man.

I don't have a solution for the 2nd scenario except try again next time, but I do have a solution for the 1st: Beauty Talk's Double Cleansing Gel!

I don't usually use makeup, but sunscreen isn't skin care and you have to remove that ish otherwise, it'll clog your pores and you'll have nasty buildup on your skin which will lead to all kinds of problems.

For the sake of demonstration though, I started my shower looking like this:


After using the Beauty Talk Double Cleansing Gel, this is how naked my face was:


To double confirm that all traces of makeup have come off (cos I'm paranoid like that, which is why I hardly use makeup in the first place), I used another makeup remover and tadaa:


Not bad, considering that if you want to use the cleansing gel as a makeup remover, you're supposed to "dispense the gel into dry hands. Massage onto the face in gentle and circular motion until all make-up is completely removed and rinse with water. Repeat steps for heavy make-up."

But even though my face and palms were wet, it took everything clean off, save for some really waterproof mascara (which my eye makeup remover also has problems removing). If you couldn't tell from the picture, I had on foundation, eyebrow pencil, eyeliner, mascara and lipstick. So yeah, I think it's one helluva cleanser.

For daily usage, you mix the gel with water and massage it into your face and rinse. Just like any other cleanser. One thing I realised about the cleanser is that it is mild and hydrating enough that I haven't noticed any adverse effects even when I go for a 3rd wash in between waking up and going to bed. I get finicky about washing my face more than twice a day because I'm afraid it would stimulate oil production because most cleansers are quite harsh and strips away your natural oils, causing dry skin, which, equals oil glands working overtime to compensate.

I haven't been using it for long, but so far it's been showing promising results. I haven't noticed any blackheads developing ever since I started it and blackheads run in my family. So it is both shocking and beautiful. The first day using it caused a few tiny red spots though, but they all disappeared after a day and my skin hasn't been breaking out since. I'm quite sold on the cleanser.

On top of it all, it smells like a dream (Johnson's Baby Bath, to be exact). And I love it! I love it! This is it. I am never changing cleansers ever again. And just imagine, this cleanser perfect for me, found me. I spent all my life (since I turned 13) looking. I tried all sorts of different brands with no luck whatsoever but this got sent to me for a review and turned out to be the one. Just goes to show that sometimes the best things in life will fall right into your lap without any effort on your part. Crazy.

Anyway, if you have combination skin like me, and have been struggling to find a cleanser that works for you, definitely give this a try.

Click on any of the pictures in this post or this line of text to get one of your own and to read more about the product - like the ingredients used! And use the coupon code "VEYRONIQA" upon checkout to receive a 15% rebate. :)